Showing posts with label Cats. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Cats. Show all posts

Monday, January 11, 2021

Levannah's Cousin Needs a New Name

During the first lockdown, I started feeding the stray cats every evening. One was very very sick and scared. I'd bring her canned food and guard her while she ate. Then one day she disappeared. It made me so sad. Last night, a healthy white kitty startled me by rubbing up against me in greeting and showered me with affection as if we were old friends, and then followed me all around the property.

Some wonderful person nursed this cat back to health. (And the snipped ear suggests a vet was involved, too.)

I've studied the "before" and "after" pictures, and I think it's the same cat! (Tan agrees with me, and she knows cats.) 

I used to call her Boudica because, even as sick as she was, the other cats didn't mess with her. Now, I'm thinking it's a boy cat. I've already named one cat Luna because he has a crescent moon on his back. And Levannah is a girl's name. Sahar is another Hebrew word for 'moon,' but I'm not sure about it.

Before
After
After
After

(Sadly, there has been no sign of Grey Tom.)

Saturday, May 2, 2020

Shabbat

When I woke up, I was thinking about Kol Emeth. I miss being a participating member of an observant, egalitarian shul.

An hour of exercise, housekeeping, texting with Yossi in Columbia, news, a chapter of The PTSD Workbook, feeding cats, and havdallah.

His siddur and a virtual minyan have been keeping Yossi sane. He and I are going to re-read Dune together. Just this evening, he learned that he can catch tomorrow's emergency flight out of Bogata. He'll meet his father in Florida and they will self quarantine together. A colleague of his will take care of his kitten.

Boudica's left eye has swollen shut, her nose is still scabbed over, and the wounds all over her face are not healing. She is moving better than she used to, and doesn't have as much trouble finding the food, but I really think she needs a vet. I wonder if Gray Tom is very old. Neither his ear nor his pompoms have been snipped. 

Both of them let me come very close to give them food and they don't mind that I sit near them or get up to give the other cats dry food, but they won't let me pet them.

The big, white, healthy cat that I call Levannah's Cousin is very polite. She eats the dry and only thinks about stealing the wet food from the two sick kitties.



Today is twenty-four days, which is three weeks and three days of the Omer.

The more you celebrate the good, the more good you discover that is worthy of celebration.

Friday, May 1, 2020

Beltain

An hour of exercises. Very motivated. Ultimately, they should be my warm-ups for the day. For the next week or so, they'll be my whole exercise routine.

I borrowed a broom and sponga pole (a squeegie on a broom stick) from Sophie and thoroughly cleaned house.

Colored my eyebrows and put some aloe on my skin. After a shower, I had an Israeli salad and rice with tehina, followed by a pudding cup, while watching the end of a movie. (Last night, I'd watched most of a really terrible movie, Roman J Israel, Esq, but today I found myself wondering how it ended. It could have been a much better movie. At least it ended on a positive note.

It was a breezy, bright day, so I took a walk. I studied a little Hebrew and watched two Hebrew videos from Ulpan La-Inyan and a TED Talk.

I lit candles at 6:59, then went down to feed the cats. Arlan came all the way up while Boudica was eating from her can. He had seen Gray Tom at the next "stop." Arlan waited patiently until she finished. Then he waited patiently again while Gray Tom ate half of his can. I took the remainder of his can up to the fridge. Then Arlan and I went to the park to chat and admire the Imposter Louie and the real Louie.

An acquaintance called from the UK to wish me a good Shabbos. He showed me his yard and the wonderful meal he was making.

I ate an apple and honey for a treat and boiled rice for a meal. Kiddush will be recited over beer.

Today is twenty-three days, which is three weeks and two days of the Omer.

For each of us God has a task. Discerning that task,
hearing God’s call, is what gives a life meaning and purpose.


Tuesday, April 7, 2020

Return of the Na-Nach-Knockers

The yellow garbage bins around the neighborhood were removed last evening, in a fascinating procedure that included a truck not really designed for the task... Israel. And the silence of the last few days may be explained by everyone, including their usually-screaming children, having been busy with Passover cleaning.

My neighbor, Sophie, never has a seder, but she will be walking to her 91-year-old father's place that evening. I reminded her of the curfew, but she doesn't think anyone will bother her on the way through Canada Gardens, where her father lives. Even though she doesn't observe Pesach, she was quite offended that people will have to hold sederim alone.

This will be the first time that I've been the youngest person at the seder. I realized I'd have to learn the four questions! I was able to find a video of the song done in an authentic, North American, Hebrew accent. 

The document from the Russian human rights group arrived today. I told the person who sent it that I'd start proofreading it on Thursday. 

Then I decided to make charosis. For motivation, I turned to a Breslover song that I love. I danced madly at first and then, as the song went on and one, learned that I'm really out of shape. I did not actually make the charosis, but everything is on the counter and ready to go...

Peter Jackson's The Hobbit was on Hot TV. I was mesmerized! There were Hebrew subtitles and I was amused to notice that, at one point, Gandalf's call to the dwarves was translated as "Kadima!"

6:30 rolled around before the movie was over, but I had to go feed the cats. I took the cat food and my drum, but nearly forgot my mask.

Music was blaring from a nearby parking lot, the sky was gorgeous, and the air invigorating. I shouted "Hag sameach, Yisrael" before I noticed that the Russian lady who also feeds cats was just a few meters away. She seemed to hesitate a moment before waving back. Bidud (isolation) has, I guess, made me a little crazy.

All the cats were hungry and eager for me to get down to business. Boudica is doing much better-- and she can definitely see! She's the white cat on left in this image:


It was still light when I met Arlan in Canada Gardens. We could hear the music down at the first playground and had to shout slightly to hear each other. He said the city of Eilat is sending a van around to entertain citizens. (It had looked more like a party to me, but who knows?) We discussed the Queen's incredible speech and other current events.

He's reading a fascinating book about American policies in the Middle East-- which began in colonial times. He shared an anecdote about Ben Franklin's abolitionist writings.

Arlan is making new travel plans for next year, when he is going to attend his high school reunion. He's still planning to go to China, on his way to California, and take a train ride across the country. However, after the reunion, he is going to take a three-week road trip to see some of the states he has never visited before, such as North Dakota and West Virginia. He is also going to Washington, D.C. Depending on the timing of his trip, I'd like to meet him there. I want to see the Lincoln Memorial and the Bible Museum. (Thanks to Rabbi Sacks's recent video, I just learned there's a FDR Memorial.)

While Arlan and I were talking, he took a picture of me and my buddy, Louie:


 The moon was all but full. The festival of Pesach is nearly here!

Arlan was going shopping and I decided to go to the store, too, to get a bottle of wine to ensure I have enough for all four glasses. (Eilat does not seem to be suffering from the egg shortage "plaguing" the country.) I did not have my wallet with me, so the Bank of Arlan gave me a loan.
He purchased a lot of food and six one-liter bottles of Pepsi Max. He came out of the store, with a huge bag on each shoulder. I couldn't let him walk home alone.

We heard loud music from many yards and balconies. Israelis are sick of lock-down and excited about the holiday.

In the news: Kids doing their army service never expected to be delivering food to large cities. Eggs arrived in Israel from Spain and Portugal this afternoon. Israeli leaders have still not formed a government; one i24 newscaster said, "the holiday of Passover is when Jews celebrate freedom, but apparently not freedom from political paralysis." Roads between Israeli towns are already locked down; tomorrow night, before chag enters, everyone is required to stay within 100 meters of their homes for 25 hours; Sunday, face masks become mandatory. Pesach, Easter, Ramadan, and Kurdish New Year. Yazidi refugees in northern Iraq are not yet directly impacted by Covid-19, but are unable to get food and medical supplies. Boris Johnson, the Prime Minister of the UK, is in intensive care, but he's not on a ventilator. Half the people who go into ICU with corona virus, do not survive. Young people in previously good health are dying. The UK's new slogan appears to be "Stay Home. Protect the NHS. Save Lives." A Japanese university held a graduation ceremony using robots.



Thursday, September 22, 2016

Nutmeg

I have sacrificed my cat to aliyah. I keep crying about it, but if I could change it, I would not.

Nutmeg in her favorite spot
She was too old to travel overseas, so I had to find a home for her here. It took a very long time, but in late July, I finally found people willing to adopt her. The closing of their house was delayed until September. I wanted to do the right thing and ensure Nutmeg had a good home, so I postponed my aliyah (and then NBN postponed it further).

It may sound crazy, but I talked to her a lot about the changes to come, and believed that she understood and was ready to go. Our last day together was a Saturday. We stayed in bed for hours. She understood it was our last day and stayed by me all day long, not even spending any time napping in her sunny spot on the balcony. She sat on my lap while I petted and talked to her all afternoon.

Tarot Prayer to find a good home for Nutmeg
That evening, her new parents came for her. We loaded her furniture, lots of food, extra meds, brush, toys, and other possessions into their pickup truck and I drove Nutmeg to their place in my car.

I felt good about her being in her new home, but it was weird to climb the stairs to my apartment and remember that Nutmeg would not be greeting me at the door. Many times a day, I'd look around and wonder where she was. I hadn't known that so much of my attention had always been on her.

A book on the foot stool by my bed would no longer prevent her from getting into bed. My blinds could be closed at night and she wouldn't bang them against the window to look out when it started to get light. My Mac could be on my lap, instead of the arm of the chair so she could be in her favorite seat. I could walk into the kitchen without being a "tease." I didn't have to hurry home worried that she was lonely. I could sleep past sunrise instead of serving her breakfast. I even planned a short trip and purchased airline tickets because I didn't have to worry about Nutmeg being lonely. I felt liberated.

I didn't have to pet her and talk to her for half an hour at a time. She didn't jump into bed to lie right next to me at the beginning of the night. I missed her.

Ribbon is the best toy!
Wednesday, four days after the couple adopted her, the man called. I knew there was only one reason that he would call me. He told me that he thought Nutmeg was very sweet, but his girlfriend was severely allergic.

I heard myself saying, "Well, I guess you want to get her out of the house as quickly as possible." He said he'd bring her back sometime later in the week. I offered to come over and help, but he declined. I told him I could be around anytime Thursday or Friday.

Earlier that day, I'd finally received my flight reservation. Immediately after the man's call, I called two acquaintances and asked them to be on the look out for a new home for Nutmeg. I also e-mailed Nefesh b'Nefesh and learned that if I cancelled more than 30 days before the flight, the fine would only be $190, not the $2,000 that I'd expected. But I did not want to cancel my flight-- this journey has been two years in the making. Then I sat it Nutmeg's favorite chair and agonized for hours.

I imagined Nutmeg coming through the door again and how happy she'd be. After her three week stay in a pet resort, she couldn't get enough of me. Then I imagined myself, staying in Tucson for months and months, waiting for someone to adopt her, and I despaired.

It seemed my only option would be to take her to a shelter. The idea made me cringe even though several people have told me that shelters are okay. After hours of crying and worrying, I texted the man at 12:35 a.m. and asked him to do take her to a shelter for me. And then I didn't fall asleep until early early in the morning.

The girl texted me Thursday morning, very angry. "This is a medical condition." I explained my situation, but backed down a little; if they'd promise to keep looking for a home for Nutmeg, I'd take her back.

As the day got later and later, I felt like I was being tortured. Did I want to see Nutmeg coming through the door or not? Where was the man with my cat? (They had been several hours late picking her up, too.) I texted the woman and asked what time her boyfriend would bring Nutmeg over.

Her boyfriend immediately texted me: "9 tomorrow." I asked if he meant morning or night, but he didn't respond.

"Scratching is for the very young; I just recline."
I thought about Nutmeg, probably locked alone in a room to prevent the spread of allergens. She hates being alone. I considered driving over and getting her. I would be able to fit her food and her window seat in my car with her carrier. But I kept worrying about aliyah, too, so I didn't go get her. 

The next morning, I checked my messages. He'd written that he'd arrive at 9 a.m., so I waited. At 9:22, I called, but he didn't answer. I checked my messages again. I tried to text the girl, but she had "unfriended" me on Facebook. I checked my phone and didn't see any calls from him.

At 11, I called a friend and asked if I should go over to their house and try to get her. I had carefully noted how to get back there, just in case they invited me to stop by and say goodbye to Nutmeg before I left.

As I was driving there, I began to wonder. She'd be there, wouldn't she?

There was a derelict truck under the car port, but the man's black pick-up was not there. I went to the window of the room they had put her in. The blinds were down and the lights were off. Obviously, Nutmeg was gone. I was distraught.

I listened to my voice mail and found that he had left a message (using a different phone) very early in the morning. "We found her a home" was all he had said. I tried calling again, but he didn't pick up.Where was my girl? Was she okay?

I didn't have the girlfriend's phone number and I couldn't leave her a message on Facebook. Then I remembered where she worked. It's a vet's office, so I thought they might have helped locate a new home and know something about it.

Hours later, the girlfriend called me, furious that I'd called her work. Her boyfriend hadn't returned my calls because his phone wasn't working. Finally, she answered my questions. Nutmeg is with a couple who have one 10-year-old cat and, yes, she said, it's a good home. She had to hang up because she was driving. They were going away for a wedding.

When she said "Of course she's in a good home," my intuition told me that it was true. Or maybe I just want it to be true.

I don't know where Nutmeg is or what the place or the people or the other cat are like. 

I talked to another friend. She suggested I contact the man one more time. I did. I wrote that a picture of Nutmeg in her new home would ease my heart.

I haven't heard from him.

Nutmeg and her dad, three years ago
My sweet little girl. I wish I knew where you are now. I hope you are well. But I'm not going to try to find out. Please, universe, keep her safe and happy.


Sunday, May 29, 2016

Choose Life

"I have put before you life and death, blessing and curse. 
Choose life – if you and your offspring would live..."  
(Deuteronomy 30:19).

When I returned to the States, I watched myself gradually change from a living person into a dead one, from a person who reached out to others into one who might just as often curl up and hide from them. I recognized that I was in the wrong place, but still, the uncertainty of moving permanently to another country frightened me. 

After finally committing myself to making aliyah, and after out-waiting (I wish I could say "battling") the agencies that are supposed to help Jews make aliyah, I find that I may be terminally ill.

Part of me welcomes that news. Part of me wants to embrace life, jump on a plane, and go home now. I have not found a home for my cat. So I've decided to “import” her, after I obtain the results of her titer test, which will take another two months.

There are certainly worthwhile things I could do during the next two months, but I’m so tired...

July 28 update: Nutmeg passed her titer test, but is too old to travel. A very nice couple is going to adopt her after they move into their first house. Nutmeg likes them. Unfortunately, the closing has been delayed and they won't have the keys until some time in September! More waiting. This is best for Nutmeg but I'm frustrated, tired, and demoralized.

Saturday, February 13, 2016

My Aliyah Has Been Approved!

The email arrived Friday afternoon, thirty-five weeks after my interview. I stared at it blankly for probably two minutes, wondering if I was reading it correctly, if it really said that my aliyah application had been approved.

When I convinced myself it did, I pictured myself back in Israel-- and then, finally, I reacted. My hands shot up to the sky and I gasped, "Yes!"

I contacted all my friends and even acquaintances to share the good news. While I was wandering around the cactus and succulent gardens at the Tucson Botanical Gardens, I daydreamed about being in the Negev. Then I wrote out my to do list. (It is much shorter than it was at this time last year!)
find a good home for my cat
just donate everything
sell my car
pack my suitcases
get on the aliyah flight
So which aliyah flight? How soon could this be accomplished? A friend pointed out, "You will need to make sure you're healthy and strong for your move so the stress doesn't knock the stuffing out of you." She has a point, but how much more time do I need to get well? It has been very troubling (ok, frightening) that I can't seem to overcome whatever it is I've caught.

I paused amid the excitement and looked inside. I realized that I did not have the energy to re-pack my things even just well enough to donate them.

The aliyah approval is good for a year and the visa will be good for six months. (I wonder: does it really take just two weeks to get the visa? It was supposed to take no more than eight weeks to get the approval, but it took more than four times that long.)

An Asherah Tree in Tucson
Since the absorption center doesn't accept "old" folks like me, I'll have to find a rental. I'll be looking for a room rather than an apartment because shipping my household goods no longer seems justifiable financially. I spent a lot keeping myself in cheap hotel rooms from after I sold my house in May until I moved into this apartment in November, and it will cost quite a bit to break my lease here.

There's no need to bring a lot of household goods, but there are many things it will be hard to part with. I notice a part of me resisting the idea of uprooting myself again. I'd been "homeless" for six months before I rented this apartment. I needed a home and now I hesitate to give it up.

I've used my time in Tucson well, despite getting sick just after I moved in: I attend Torah study regularly, I found a wonderful chevruta and we've been studying Leviticus, I've met quite a few very nice people, and I've gone to the botanical gardens a few times. But I feel some regret about the things I have not crossed off my to do list. And the Federation's tour of Jewish Tucson today made me feel that this could be a good place to live.

How foolish to feel any hesitation now that I can make aliyah! I'm more myself in Israel.  I belong to the Land and I won't thrive anywhere else. 

I've spoken with a woman who lives in Karmiel, Sylvia, and it sounds like the perfect Israeli town for me. My chevruta is willing to continue studying with me via Skype. Israel is my destination; why stop now?

Nesting in a saguaro
Jon suggested that I plan to go in April, which would give me adequate time to get healthy and to make living arrangements, but Sylvia pointed out that government offices are closed that month for Pesach. So I will have to go after April. (Will I want to fly right back to the States for Kohenet in August? I certainly can't wait until August to make aliyah! But I also can't interrupt ulpan for a trip to the States.)

This doesn't have to be complicated. The only significant hurdle is finding a home for Nutmeg. (I don't dare think about what it will be like to part with her.) I created a flyer and I took her to the vet for a check up. She has a slight infection. The first antibiotic made her nauseous, so we're trying a different one.

Israel awaits! Of course I do need to regain my health and strength before I go. My doctor's appointment is on the 29th. If I'm not better by then, surely he can fix me up quickly.

A few months ago, I wrote that my greatest fear was that I might never make aliyah. It bothers me that I'm not rushing out the door now.

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Good News

At the risk of jinxing myself, I will say that I am healthy again. I made a nice Shabbos dinner for myself last night and finally went to Saturday morning Torah Study at the big, Reform shul today.

After Torah study, I asked a woman who's obviously an inveterate student if she would study Leviticus with me. Yes! We exchanged numbers. We'll start Tuesday the 26th and maybe I'll join her for a Biblical Hebrew class this Wednesday night, even though they started ten weeks ago and even though I'll have to go out after dark.

A chevruta! I've been looking for someone to study Leviticus with me forever and I finally found someone! 

It was a wonderful/horrible morning.

So nice to be at a Reform Torah study. Sure there are fewer comments citing specifically Jewish knowledge, but there is a love of Torah and a respect for other human beings that is uniquely Reform. In a Reform setting, the exploration of text is also an exploration of life and values.

Near the end of class, I had a flashback. For the first time, I recognized it for what it was. Instead of the shame of the experience and the shame of having a mind that would return to it, I could hold the memory and look at it-- and, knowing it was only CPTSD, set it to one side (where it kept poking at me like my cat does when she wants a snack at 3 in the morning).

After Torah study and talking with Kilian (while pushing away the flashback), I found comfort in basar v'chalav and a potent beer at Tucson Tamale. And I realized why I'm having some trouble starting to keep kosher again; traif is my defense mechanism against pain.

When I got home, I dragged Nutmeg's new piece of cat furniture outside so we could both bask in the sun. She prefers my lap.

So sweet!



Monday, March 2, 2015

Home

What does "home" mean?

My memories of Israel are more vivid and real to me than this place I’ve been “living” since I returned to the States almost four years ago. Choosing where to settle down was hard. I felt a pull to live in Israel. I was also… afraid of making a mistake. So I made the sensible, safe choice.

Since then, constantly longing for Israel, I've had to remind myself again and again that all my life I dreamed of having a home. And I have one. There is a park in front and state land behind. It has a nice kitchen and space for tea parties and dinner guests. My cat and I can curl up on comfortable furniture and we go outside to watch hummingbirds, songbirds, hummingbird moths, and the occasional hawk.

Home. Inigo Montoya said, “You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means.”

I thought a home was a building, but now I wonder if it means the land and people you belong to.


Saturday, April 26, 2014

Friday, April 4, 2014

Feline Friday

"I didn't think she'd really do it. She made the bed right on top of me."

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Composting

HaMelech Parpar supervising the work
Last week, I bought a twenty-gallon Roughneck Refuse Can by Rubbermaid. After tax, it cost $16.29. Holly Winkeljohn suggested a larger bin, but I don't generate huge amounts of vegetable waste, and I wanted to purchase the cheapest one in the store. (The lid snaps on and I hope it is secure enough to remain attached when I roll the bin.)

I had fun that night, noisily drilling holes in it. I felt almost handy and self-reliant. (I was glad I had my father's electric drill; using a nail and hammer might have been possible but would not have created large enough holes. You'd have to lay the bin on soft soil and hammer the nails from the inside out.) I used a metal file to remove the spirals of plastic that were sticking out from the edges of each hole that might have restricted airflow. 

My first contributions to my compost bin were pieces of seed potatoes left over from planting I did a few days ago. I also added a little bit of old potting soil, some dry clippings from the yard, and a few green leaves. (Since nothing will grow under a pine tree, I didn't add pine leaves, but I read later that it's fine to include them.)

Dad's electric drill
This morning, I offered it some wet coffee grounds. Yes, offered. Contributing to a compost bin is nearly a religious experience. It’s amazing that garbage can become beautiful, rich, clean soil. 

Years ago, a neighbor of mine had a huge compost pile and I loved taking my cooking scraps to her yard—contribution instead of waste. (Why do stores sell bundles of cilantro when all we ever need is a couple of springs? I always put the bundle of greens in a small glass of water to enjoy their fragrance, but it only keeps for a day or so.)

Holly Winkeljohn's article tells us to equally mix browns and greens to ensure the rapid breakdown of . If the greens and browns aren't balanced, the bin will put off a strong odor.

The result
  • Greens are items rich in nitrogen: freshly cut grass, pruned plants, tea bags and tea leaves, peelings, used coffee grounds, horse and cow manure, and vegetables. 
  • Browns are items rich in carbon: dried twigs, fall leaves, paper, pinecones and pine needles, shredded newspaper, straw, and wood chips.
  • Avoid meat and dairy products, diseased plants, grease, oil, and pet poop.
  • You can add eggshells to your compost bin as long as you rinse them thoroughly. They are a source of calcium.
  • Citrus fruits may keep scavengers away. Cut the peels into small pieces because otherwise they take a very long time to break down.
  • Compost This is a great site with tiled pictures of items you might want to compost and the word "yes," "no," or "maybe" on each one. You can click on the picture if you want to learn more.

My yard has no shade in the summer and we're expecting particularly hot weather, so I’ll have to add water each morning when I take water out for the baby quails. I'm very excited about my compost bin and can't wait to watch the magic.

If you have any composting tips or suggestions, I’d love to hear from you!



Update: Now that the bin in nearly full, I have trouble rolling it or even using a shovel to stir the contents. Consider investing in the real thing.

Saturday, February 1, 2014

The Love of Friends

During our Pagan Tea Time, Rhyd Wildermuth and I spoke about many things: music, wands, home, family, his studies with OBOD, books, Powells, and Ursula K. LeGuin.

In addition to being nice and interesting, Rhyd showed immense admiration for my boy cat.

At some point during our conversation, I asked him if he really remembered love. He thought about it and said, if I recall correctly, that he remembered what went with it, what his life was like then.

That's all that I recall about romantic relationships, too. It seems to me that friendship is a stronger bond even though it comes without responsibility or expectations. For some reason, the strongest friendships seem to be between people who are very different.

And friendship transcends death. You can accept being separated if you know that you loved and were loved without reservation. You don’t have to cling to promises of another world or reincarnation, because the memory of a friend's love strengthens your soul. 

 

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Hestia - Part 1

In response to the Thirty Days of Devotion Challenge, Rhyd Wildermuth has written several posts about a Welsh goddess called Arianrhod. Reading his posts and the thirty questions that inspired them, I immediately thought of writing about Hestia, Goddess of the Hearth. I dismissed the idea, but it stuck in my head and wouldn't accept any of my excuses for not writing. 


Here are my answers to the first ten of thirty questions originally posed by Ruadhán. (I've also added a thirty-first question, which will appear in the final post.)


I. A basic introduction of the deity

The ancient Greeks believed in a goddess of the home and hearth they called Hestia. There are few surviving images of her. She was, perhaps, represented by the fire in the hearth or the hearth itself. She was presumably a deity of household abundance, the well-being of a family, and the preparation of food.

Her name means 'hearth.' For most of human history and pre-history, the hearth was the central and most important part of a home. The fire in the hearth provided warmth, nourishment, light, and a sense of security. Today, even if you have a well furnished, centrally heated, living room, people tend to gather in the kitchen whether or not there are enough seats. The kitchen is still the center of the house and we are still drawn to the place where her presence is most focused. (The Latin word, focus, meant hearth or fireplace and was used figuratively for home or family.)

Her fire was sacred and it was considered unlucky for the hearth fire to go out or be extinguished. A newly born infant would be carried around the hearth fire. Supposedly, when young women married, mothers would transfer fire from their hearths to their daughter's new home. (However, it seems likely, that a newly married couple would have lived with the groom's extended family, in which case, there would already be a fire burning in that hearth.)

Hestia was neither a mother nor a wife. Yet warmth, comfort, and nourishment were attributed to her presence in the home.

In the Greek myths, Hestia was the first child of Cronus. He swallowed each of his children immediately after they were born. The last child, Zeus, escaped this fate and forced his father to disgorge the other children. Since Hestia was the first to be swallowed and the last to be released, she spent the most time in the dark.

She is credited with discovering how to build houses. And she mostly preferred to stay inside them.

Unlike household gods in other cultures, Hestia's realm wasn't restricted solely to the family hearth; she was also worshiped at the city's communal hearth. She was said to keep both running smoothly. (She must have kept a low profile in Athens; I can't imagine Athena sharing a city with anyone.) When Greeks founded a new colony, they brought fire from their former city's hearth for their new city's hearth. Her role, if any, in community politics is lost to time.

There's little information about the worship of Hestia, but obviously she was important: a sacrifice to any god, whether in the home or a temple, had to begin and end with Hestia's hearth fire.


II. How did you become first aware of this deity? 

I first learned about Hestia in a book called Goddesses in Everywoman: A New Psychology of Women, which a roommate loaned me when I expressed an interest in her religion: paganism. The author of the book identified seven psychological archetypes which she associated with seven Greek goddesses. Three of these were "virgin goddesses," active and independent, three were "vulnerable goddesses," passive and abused, and one, Aphrodite, was the "alchemical goddess."

The archetype that I most identified with was Hestia. (Interestingly, in a later book, Goddesses in Older Women, the same author claims that Hestia is the only archetype from her earlier book that remains active throughout a woman's life.)

Because I learned of Hestia from that book, I considered her only an archetype within myself. Recently it has happily occurred to me that the Hestia's energy might have a source outside my own psyche.


III. Symbols and icons of this deity  
A geranium branch?

  • The hearth, where food was cooked and which warmed the house 
  • Fire, which cooked food and was necessary for animal sacrifice
  • Donkeys, which were used to turn millstones to make flour for bread
  • On Greek pottery, Hestia is always still; fire isn't depicted in those images (perhaps because her fire is inside her heart?)
  • Cranes, according to one list. Why? They do build nests and form flocks; there are even some that do not migrate. A few myths and fables about cranes are interesting to consider.
  • Some images show Hestia holding a what looks like a staff, scepter, distaff, or large spindle, and might have indicated rank or domestic work.
  • Household implements such as bowls, pantries, and keys. (Let's add a witch's cauldron to that list.)
  • Veils, perhaps because she prefers to remain hidden and anonymous
  • This list should include cats. What's a hearth without a cat? They aren't (too) demanding. They offer sincere love—not the showy phony kind—and they offer love when it's most needed. That sounds like the kind of love a hearth goddess would recognize.

IV. A favorite myth or myths of this deity 

There aren't many myths about Hestia. There is the story of her being swallowed by her father and the story that she stopped a war between Poseidon and Apollo by declaring she would never marry. (I suspect she would have made that decision regardless; the wrong spouse would have extinguished her flame.) There are different stories about why she gave up her seat at the Olympian dinner table to Dionysus.

My favorite story is the one with the donkey:

Roman goddess, Vesta
Hestia's mother threw a wild party to which she had invited the gods, nymphs, satyrs, and other semi-divine beings. Everyone drank too much, but while the other beings played or had sex, Hestia wandered away to take a nap on the grass near a river.

Priapus saw her asleep and decided to rape her. As he approached, a donkey brayed. Hestia awoke and, seeing Priapus, called for help.

Priapus was mocked and humiliated. (In revenge, Priapus used his giant phallus to beat the donkey.)

It seems odd that I like this story. It implies that it's dangerous for girls to go outside alone. (Okay, that's often true.) It implies that, except for Athena and Xena Warrior Princess, women cannot protect themselves. (Well, that's mainly true.) It promises that people will help a helpless woman. (That's completely false.) Maybe I like the story because it's funny that an ass makes an ass of a would-be rapist.

I was reminded of Hestia while reading The Mists of Avalon years ago. After Morgaine is more or less forced into marriage with an older man, she settles into her new home and gradually takes charge of it. Morgaine made Hestia seem like a goddess of power.

There should be a myth about the hearth fire itself. Hestia's flame represents stability and permanence and it is never destructive, but fire is not stable or permanent and it can be as destructive as it is useful-- if it is not contained by Hestia's hearth.


V. Members of the family – genealogical connections 

Hestia was the great grandchild of Gaia and Uranus and the daughter of Cronus and Rhea. She was the eldest sister of Zeus, Hera, Demeter, Poseidon, and Hades, and half sister to Athena, Hermes, Apollo, Artemis, and Dionysus. One of her aunts was Aphrodite, and her nephews included Ares and Hephaestus.

That was hardly "one big happy family." Hiding in the kitchen and only coming out with delicious meals to placate the others would have been my first choice, too.


A Greek Herm
VI. Other related deities and entities associated with this deity

Hestia was the hearth inside every Greek home. Her counterpart, Hermes, was a standing stone outside every door. (You were supposed to rub the penis for luck.)

Hermes was the god of boundaries, thresholds, liminal places (or times), and transitions. Unlike Hestia, he was a comfortable outside the home, moving quickly and confidently. He was a trickster, but it is said that his deceits usually assisted mortals against the gods.

Hermes was also a guide and a guardian. I like to think of him guarding Hestia's door, guiding her when she had to venture outside, and therefore, indirectly protecting her inner fire.


VII. Names and epithets

Egypt, 6th c. Tapestry
Greeks called her "Hestia, First and Last." She was born first but was the last to be rescued from Cronus. She received the first and last of all sacrifices.

Homer called her "The Worshipful and Dear." I like that epithet.

Recently, I caught myself calling her "Sister." It seemed right, but it puzzled me. Don't gods demand more intimidating titles?

Greco-Egyptians called her "Hestia Full of Blessings." That has an agricultural ring to it that suggests her role may have extended beyond the home in that time and place.


VIII. Variations on this deity (aspects, regional forms, etc.) 

The Roman goddess, Vesta: 

The Romans had an equivalent goddess, named Vesta. (Did the Roman and Greek gods have a common cultural ancestor or did the Romans, admirers of Greek culture, conflate the characteristics of the Greek gods with their own gods?)
Statues of Vestal Virgins
in the Forum Romanum

Vesta was a state goddess and had a temple in the Roman Forum that is still partially standing. Her temple was run by the only female priests in Rome.

The role of Vestal Virgin doesn't feel very Hestian to me. (Understand that I'm basing that statement and the next solely on what I imagine ancient Rome was like.)

The Temple of Vesta served the empire, not the goddess of the hearth or the fire in anyone's heart. A Vestal Virgin was selected by others and functioned within the state religion. Her life, though privileged, was regulated. Her functions as a priest were defined before she began her thirty years of service. Finally (and I can't figure out why this bothers me most), marriage to a former Vestal Virgin was prestigious.

The Celtic goddess, Brighid:

Like Hestia, Brighid was a goddess of fire. In Kildare, Ireland there was an eternal flame tended by her priestesses; it remained lit in the Christian era until (I think) the British brought the Protestant Reformation to Ireland. However, she was primarily goddess of the forge—of the magic and creativity of poets, blacksmiths, and healers—not of the home.

Rachel's Teraphim:

When Jacob took his family and flocks away from his father-in-law's house, Rachel, stole her father's teraphim. It is unclear if they were representations of family gods, statues of ancestral spirits, or a means of divination. In any case, they were something she wanted in her home and believed it was her right to have. To the Matriarch, Rachel, the teraphim were as essential to her home as the family's fire was.

The Japanese Kitsune Fox: 

A household spirit and very cute! He sometimes causes mischief, but (I'm sure) he means no harm. Actually he's more like Hermes than Hestia. In Japan, his image guards the doors of temples, but instead of a huge penis, he has nine fluffy tails. (If you are in doubt, ask my boy cat: there is nothing more manly than a big pouffy tail. Nine? Wow!)

The Chinese god, Zao Jun (or Tsao Chun): 

There are many household gods in Chinese mythology. Zao Jun, known as the stove master, is said to be one of most important.

The Ryukyuan kami, Hi Nu Kan: 

The hearth spirit, central to daily spirituality, was represented by three stones kept in the kitchen.

The Catholic saint, Martha: 

A contemporary statue
Several years ago, I saw (and purchased) a statue that reminded me of Hestia. I assumed it represented a Catholic saint. Someone later told me that the artist intended to depict St. Martha, whose symbols are a broom, keys, and a ladle.

Even I know the story: Jesus dropped in unannounced at the home of Martha and Mary. Mary sat at his feet like an adoring groupie. Martha welcomed him, quickly prepared a meal, served him, and did all the work that a good hostess would.

Jesus liked Mary better. (I bet his attitude would have changed if Martha hadn't been there to prepare his dinner.)

Nienna:

I'm completely serious (and certainly nuts). I've been convinced of Ulmo's reality since I first struggled through The Silmarillion when I was twelve, and if Nienna isn't real, she should be.

Although she isn't a goddess of hearth or fire, she has the strength and compassion of Hestia. You can imagine Olorin (aka Gandalf) dwelling in her home and learning simply from her presence.
Mightier than Estë is Nienna, sister of the Feantúri; she dwells alone. She is acquainted with grief, and mourns for every wound that Arda has suffered in the marring of Melkor. So great was her sorrow, as the Music unfolded, that her song turned to lamentation long before its end, and the sound of mourning was woven into the themes of the World before it began. But she does not weep for herself; and those who hearken to her learn pity, and endurance in hope. Her halls are west of West, upon the borders of the world; and she comes seldom to the city of Valimar where all is glad. She goes rather to the halls of Mandos, which are near to her own; and all those who wait in Mandos cry to her, for she brings strength to the spirit and turns sorrow to wisdom. The windows of her house look outward from the walls of the world. - J. R. R. Tolkien, The Silmarillion 

Other Deities: 

Here are lists of other hearth goddesses and other fire goddesses.


IX. Common mistakes about this deity 

I have probably made a few in this post. Feel free to let me know.


X. Offerings – historical and UPG 

Historical:
  • sweet wineso a kiddish cup full of Manischewitz or Schapiro's could do double duty? (Don't tell HaShem.)
  • pigs (really? not a well-prepared brisket?) 
  • the fat from animal sacrifices to any god (to paraphrase Leviticus, "All fat belongs to the Lady.") 
Not exactly historical:
  • lighting Shabbat candles, taking challah, and immersing in the mikveh; the experience of those things feels very Hestian... 
  • singing Eishet Chayil to the woman of the house on Friday nights. In some ways, the words reflect Hestia: "A woman of virtue… she watches over the ways of her household, and does not eat the bread of idleness." However, the passage does not capture Hestia's inner stillness, her strength, or her independence from those who prosper because of her labor. 
Unverifiable Personal Gnosis (what a great phrase!)
  • baking soda and vinegar applied liberally to all washable surfaces and poured down the drains
  • a candle burning in the kitchen
  • the welcoming of guests
  • creating altars
  • moving at your own pace under the guidance of nothing but your own soul

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I address the remaining questions in parts 2 and 3:

(Hestia, Part 1)       Hestia, Part 2       Hestia, Part 3


Thanks to Rhyd for introducing me to the Thirty Days of Devotion Challenge. Here are links to his posts: